Monday, November 19, 2012

Navigating Through Labryinth

Wealth, career, relationships, emotions, marriage etc. Phew!! People belonging to my age bracket are all jostling or are trying to come to terms with such issues. And i happen to belong to the same league, trying to make my way through the labyrinth! At times,  i wonder why do we get so entangled with these miniature issues that we fail to see a bigger picture. Thanks to spiritual masters, i am slowly realizing that rather than merely existing like all other life forms we need to add value to our life and make appropriate use of our human body. Aren't we supposed to spread the smiles around and help to this make a world better place? How are we gonna contribute when we don't rise above such trivial stuff. I have vivid memories of i how wanted to be actively involved in bringing about improvements in the society at one point of time. How i had an opinion on every other issue and i loved debating with like-minded people on those. Wow! that was me around...uhmm around 6 years back.

In between, ambitions like grabbing a good job opportunity, earning well and charting a steady growth path, all the visionary stuff kind of lots its relevance. Really, life seemed like a race and i didn't want to be left behind my peers. I had a comfortable job, earned a decent living, went places, spent the money lavishly and i thought wow!! this is life! The ambitions grew further and i turned a blind eye towards the social stuff. A play of politics at work or should i say a twist of fate intervened and i was out of work for months. In those months, i started realized the futility of my material desires. I discovered that social connections are indeed strongly linked to an individual's professional stature and paycheck. And what a harsh truth it is!

The dots are now slowly connecting, and yes i am beginning to realize that it all had a purpose. Now, with guru's grace, i am being presented with opportunities to work for the welfare of society. The futile desires are gradually receding and i no longer want every other fashionable apparel in my closet or watch a movie every weekend. I am in no mad-rush like others and am miles and miles behind in the rat race. At work-front, i have made peace with my profession and don't loath the work anymore. I see it at as a duty and give my cent percent efforts and that is partly attributable to the absence of dirty mud-slinging politics. Yes, dear blog! i am changing for good. The process of transformation is shaping me up and would gradually reveal the diamond within.

I am savoring bliss and the nectar of gratitude, i have had those moments when tears of divine love and gratitude rolled down my cheeks. It is said that in those moments that you truly live your life and all thanks to Guruji's grace, i have experienced those. At times, when someone asks 'what is it that you really wish for?' i go totally blank. Really, the desires are fading away and i believe that whatever i need would be taken care of. Though, there are still dilemmas, dark spots and certain nick-nacks that are not yet plugged. I have faith that they would be taken care of by divine powers in the best possible way.

At times i feel like i am Mr. Darcy's reincarnation :P Really! i am grossly misunderstood by people, i find it hard to express and my arrogance is mostly perceived as 'not interested'. Does that bother me? Well! not much now i would say, but it still pinches at times when i am not able to get my point across. It hurts when i see people on the wrong path and i am unable to do anything about it. With time, i hope the feeling of contentment is gonna plug all the loop holes and i'll achieve the ultimate purpose of life. And i sincerely hope that i pen down and publish the book within :) Someday yes, it would happen!!