Monday, November 19, 2012

Navigating Through Labryinth

Wealth, career, relationships, emotions, marriage etc. Phew!! People belonging to my age bracket are all jostling or are trying to come to terms with such issues. And i happen to belong to the same league, trying to make my way through the labyrinth! At times,  i wonder why do we get so entangled with these miniature issues that we fail to see a bigger picture. Thanks to spiritual masters, i am slowly realizing that rather than merely existing like all other life forms we need to add value to our life and make appropriate use of our human body. Aren't we supposed to spread the smiles around and help to this make a world better place? How are we gonna contribute when we don't rise above such trivial stuff. I have vivid memories of i how wanted to be actively involved in bringing about improvements in the society at one point of time. How i had an opinion on every other issue and i loved debating with like-minded people on those. Wow! that was me around...uhmm around 6 years back.

In between, ambitions like grabbing a good job opportunity, earning well and charting a steady growth path, all the visionary stuff kind of lots its relevance. Really, life seemed like a race and i didn't want to be left behind my peers. I had a comfortable job, earned a decent living, went places, spent the money lavishly and i thought wow!! this is life! The ambitions grew further and i turned a blind eye towards the social stuff. A play of politics at work or should i say a twist of fate intervened and i was out of work for months. In those months, i started realized the futility of my material desires. I discovered that social connections are indeed strongly linked to an individual's professional stature and paycheck. And what a harsh truth it is!

The dots are now slowly connecting, and yes i am beginning to realize that it all had a purpose. Now, with guru's grace, i am being presented with opportunities to work for the welfare of society. The futile desires are gradually receding and i no longer want every other fashionable apparel in my closet or watch a movie every weekend. I am in no mad-rush like others and am miles and miles behind in the rat race. At work-front, i have made peace with my profession and don't loath the work anymore. I see it at as a duty and give my cent percent efforts and that is partly attributable to the absence of dirty mud-slinging politics. Yes, dear blog! i am changing for good. The process of transformation is shaping me up and would gradually reveal the diamond within.

I am savoring bliss and the nectar of gratitude, i have had those moments when tears of divine love and gratitude rolled down my cheeks. It is said that in those moments that you truly live your life and all thanks to Guruji's grace, i have experienced those. At times, when someone asks 'what is it that you really wish for?' i go totally blank. Really, the desires are fading away and i believe that whatever i need would be taken care of. Though, there are still dilemmas, dark spots and certain nick-nacks that are not yet plugged. I have faith that they would be taken care of by divine powers in the best possible way.

At times i feel like i am Mr. Darcy's reincarnation :P Really! i am grossly misunderstood by people, i find it hard to express and my arrogance is mostly perceived as 'not interested'. Does that bother me? Well! not much now i would say, but it still pinches at times when i am not able to get my point across. It hurts when i see people on the wrong path and i am unable to do anything about it. With time, i hope the feeling of contentment is gonna plug all the loop holes and i'll achieve the ultimate purpose of life. And i sincerely hope that i pen down and publish the book within :) Someday yes, it would happen!!


shweta said...

hmm Monica. . post seemed a lil religious than spiritual. . i prefer the spiritual way more :) Life needs to be a little practical too . . but whr one finds happiness, one loves staying there n preaches the same. . the sole purpose i think of life is to be happy n keep the soul happy n alive n so you are! Helping/ guiding others and being with them really adds meaning to life. . . and when one feels content, one does not think abt wishing anythng, but like u said certain thngs are "not yet plugged", the search for those things would keep us going, may upset us too, but such mysteries of life keep the journey going n will always be there. .
PS: i am expressing myself after really a long time, so incase it doesn't make much of a sense, jus ignore it. . :)

monica said...

I agree with you Shweta :) It makes sense...aah!! the mysteries of life, profound they are indeed!

sobhit said...

well havnt been loggin on to d net lately.. but gud to c u writing agaon.. d content n mattrs u mentioned here r beyond me to comprehend.. but i wish u all d best in wich evr journey u taking on n hope u dont leave dos who arnt as evolved as u spiritually.. behind ... u wana spread smiles.. try wid dos near u.. charity begins at home... but irony is most f ppl in social causes fail to look aftr d causes of der near n dear ones.. but as u mentioned ur changing for good.. n change is good as ppl say.. jst dat all feel dey doing wot dey doing d best n odrs dnt undrstnd der point f view.. while v ourselvs fail to undrstnd odrs as well.. wot good r v if v behave d same as u feel odrs do.. but den again dis wud b d case wid less spiritually enlghtnd souls like me.. dos f ur league r way beyond d petty issues n bothrngs n working fr d society.. bless u monica .. n hope u succed in wotevr u aspire..

PS gud to c u back posing ur thots.. wud b nice to hv a as a regular here like old times .. den again alot like old times wud b gud.. but alas..

Sadaf Khurshid said...

Monica, while reading through this I realize that you write words which say all that the reader has in mind but never puts them to words! :D

Anonymous said...

Wish someone would put some sense into my head...I completely get what you are saying here. As long as you are content with your life and the changes.. nothing else matters :)