Sunday, August 30, 2009



My horoscope of the day read “You need to release the creativity bottled up inside you dear Capricorn”. I am taken aback by the precision of these predictions at times. How did they get to know that? But then, not all questions have answers, Isn’t it! I have been away from my passion for too long. Yeah, writing is a passion and a way for me to release the bottled up complexities and seek clarity. All this while, arbitrary “WHY’s” have been playing hide and seek with my intellect. I had to let go else I knew I would go BONKERS.

There’s something magical about the weather today. A mysterious force sprouts the temptation within me to pick up the pen and make notes. To hell with the college assignments! It was hard to resist that, especially when the brain was overstuffed.
I looked up at the infinite sky. Fluffy cotton like white cloud is swaying past a dense blue layer beneath. Moments later a new picture emerges gradually. I try and capture few pictures. You might be wondering that I am always posting repetitive pictures. The ever changing patterns of clouds never cease to stun me. The phrase “PAINTING IN MOTION” flashed like a bolt of lightning in my psyche. On a rusty orange canvas, the creator has painted bold strokes of blue and gray. I savor the panoramic spectacle. It kind of grows on me. The more I gaze, deeper I am drawn. Drawn, to a parallel space time frame. Time just stops by and everything stills for me in those moments. I feel connected to the cosmic force. An air of humbleness descends on me. I am just a small entity in this infinite space with an undiscovered purpose. We humans have a balloon like ego and pride which gets inflated every now and then. However for me, a look at the limitless space up above works well to deflate that balloon. Moreover, the enchanting splendor and rawness in nature arouses tender emotions within me. Be it the joy in witnessing the budding of a flower or studying the staleness in trees. Everything natural is complex and yet so simple.



Of late, the complexities of all, who are worldly and wise, had been bothering me. I marveled at the thought “what I am doing here”. I wished that I could lose this crowd. I wished that I could run far away from everything as Tom does in Forrest Gump. But then again, I guess, the cosmic force has its own enigmatic ways of lifting up my spirits. The other day I saw a volunteer helping a visually impaired person through the thick maze of crowd. At that instant, all the ill thoughts vanished. I regained my lost hope. A realization dawned upon me “All is not lost yet”. Kind souls are still around, no matter how worse things turn, a kind soul shall always be there to guide me. I realized how lucky and blessed I have been to have connections with benevolent souls. Touch wood to that! My connections shall never ever let me down. Love you all and be there for me always.

With this affirmation I sign off.

8 comments:

Angelina said...

It is wonderful to see that you are back blogging, and that the fog is lifting. Still it must have been a difficult period for you but I can see a strong spirit emerging.

Keep well.

sobhit said...

hmm.. n den i read stuff like dis n guess get 2 knw wot blogging is abt... not much 2 say tho u talkd f kind souls 2 guide u.. well i kinda dbt dat cos u bein d kind soul urself .. not many can guide u n shw u d way.. on d contrary many myt n sure do look up2 u 2 shw d way :)... so gud going...n kudis 2d hell wid assgnmnts spirit.. :P :P.. not dat i wud preach dat but gud 2 hv it arnd once a while wid othrs 2...as 4d egoistc balloon getin all pumped up its gud u hv found a way f deflating it ..tho d ppl who knw u wud agree wid me wen i say dat hardly or nvr it has been d case wid u f been ballooned wid such issues.. but still if u felt so smhw den gud u hv a way f deflating it.. tho i still stand stern wen i say it is nvr d case wid u.. so in all gud read ,, n gud dat u can still manage 2 find s goodness arnd u smhw , alls not lost yet...

Rohini Prasanth said...

Monicaaa!
Oh my darling!!
I am soooo glad, you are back to blogging..

heehee.. sorry about that.. been wanting to do that for a long time now. I enjoy that song.. and I am sure its quite cliche for you now. :)

I am happy to see you back to blogging.

Hey.. you write beautifully. And, imagine my happiness when you speak of the exact same feeling I had the day before my exam, when I spent a solid 15 min photographing clouds.. I did post a few that day, don't know if you've been there yet.
Lovely post and pics..

Although my own thoughts were not so nicely worded. :)

monica said...

Angelina: Fog is lifting but will take time. Don't know about the strong spirit part. Only time shall tell.

Sobhit :So kind of you to say that.But the balloon does get inflated every now and then,may be you haven't observed that yet.

Rohini: Hey! i love that song.So no need to worry about that. Thanks for being generous.Will check out the post on your page too :)

kasabiangirl said...

Lovely post...very raw and straight from the heart..welcome back...was missing your writing :)

Parul said...

Glad that you are back to what you are best at! Missed your posts and the monica (i know) around. It was a phase that was low, but then i guess you'll come out of the sorrow.
And only kind people get back what they sow. So you're reaping your own good deeds. As for the generous souls you wrote about, "I completely agree" with it(some of those whom i know). I'm surprised at their gestures day after day. Its hard to find such humans who dont even make you realize about what they did!
So, a nice post as always! And hang in there :)

monica said...

I agree with you PArul on that. I guess we know whom we are talking about.
They always come forward to help out and people like these make you live with HOPE and a positive affirmation that 'Life is worth living'.

Rohini Prasanth said...

You have been tagged!! Please do it when you have time :)
All the best for your exam (I do not know when it is, but I am sure you said you had one coming up)cata